1) Trăim în propriile minți
Precum ostaticii
Vrem să evadăm, să distrugem, să fugim
Să ne eliberăm sinele captiv și torturat
Zi de zi, noapte de noapte
De propriile minți
2) Stau blocată, în mijlocul camerei
Mă holbez la pereți, la tavan, la podea
Încercând să mă ancorez în realitate
Totuși, parcă trupu-mi a devenit nelocuibil
Disociez, nu sunt prezentă
Mă aflu pe bancheta din spate
a proprie-mi vieți
Sunt absentă mental
Cine ești tu? Ce caut lângă tine?
Devine extenuant
simplul act de a mă trezi
Iarăși mă pun pe social media
Parcă am nevoie de o obsesie
ca să mă simt în viață
3) Lately I’ve been trying to run from reality
All I wanted to do was sleep
Constantly,
But I couldn’t,
Yet I’m still running from reality
How painful must it be
For a person to keep running
When there isn’t much to run from
Except their own thoughts.
4) Your parting like that
Broke me
At a fragile age
I learned what death was
How losing people dear to me felt like
I miss you every single day
We all do
We moved on but we’re stuck in the mud
Confusing, isn’t it?
Your absence left us all broken
From the oldest to the youngest
I just can’t wait to meet you again
some day
Grandpa
5) As each day passes
The memories I have of you
Fade away
I’m losing you more and more every day
I’m trying to remember
But nothing’s coming to my mind
I’m forgetting how your voice used to sound
I’m forgetting how you used to call my name lovingly
How you said I am your princess
Oh, why did you have to leave?
It’s been almost 7 years and it seems like
I’ll never make peace with it
6) I’ve spent too much time inside the bubble
Dark, covered in pitch
Hard to break out and free
I don’t want to go back
/
We can make it, right?
You and I, together
We’re bulletproof, the eternal
We’re not alone
We have them
Talking to you like this,
Unable to give you the warmest hug
It feels heartbreaking
The only way I can see you
is through the mirror
I want to hold your hand
Give you a forehead kiss
‘You can do it honey’
7) I used to think that
I need somebody to love
Since I have so much love within
I wanted to give my love to someone
To anyone
and everyone
but myself
Now I wonder why
Why can’t I give myself the love
I’m so desperately trying to give
to others?
I believe that I deserve one kind of love
So I’m waiting for it to find me
But, truth be told
The right type of love
Is already within myself
8) Noisy silence
It feels like I’m drowning on air
All this silence has had me deaf for a while now
But why can I still hear the screams?
So far yet so close?
Is my mind playing tricks on me again?
“It’s all in your head”
Feeling unmotivated
Scared
Told my goals to too many people
How can I fulfill them now?
I’m confused
How am I supposed to love?
Don’t drag me back there again
Please
