Being

I am but a simple observer of the misery inside these flesh
walls
And as this rotting erodes
As this pain screams in deafness
As these emerging tragedies define who I am
As this eternal scream of unset shows me the truth
I lay naked in voids and vomit
I lay naked in humiliation
While self-abuse
bites through this wall of memories
bites through this self-induced angst
Regret spreading throughout numbness
and failed forms of being
as I rest my head against past heartaches
It hurts
and I morph again
ceaselessly through pain
into a new attempt
at being